i am what i've became,
but all i let you see is the masquera,
i'm for no one but me,
my problems aren't others,
i can fight for years,
and not defeat the monster that's me,
the degenerate you can't see in the mirror,
the pathetic loser under the skin,
but my skin has hidden it for so long,
it's become fragile,
oh so fragile,
and the masquera just wipes away,
it pains me to know,
that sometimes,
i let me show,
and it destroys both me and you,
the moments of weakness,
just make me weaker,
apologies are pathetic, they don't work,
so I promise, I'll beat me.
the sunrise,
a putrid smell,
it's just the booze,
a bright light,
a pounding head,
it's just the booze,
a breakup,
you just left me,
it's just the booze,
blame the booze,
it's easier,
it's just the booze,
i'm sorry,
apologies,
it's just the booze,
uncontained,
my addiction,
it's just the booze,
one more night,
suicide note,
it's just the booze.....
S lowly rot, under your unadorned crosses
A s the carrion birds float down,
T ry to escape, but you're in unrest
A state of unfeeling, death
N ever ending heat and pain
S tanding between you and your life
P ristine images in your mind
A s the world around is blurry with pain
R endering the eyes incapable and sight pointless
A wkward images in the retinas of your soul
D estroy the memories of the once loved,
I 'm the one who does this all, I'm
S atan, i feed on envy and destruction,
E verything here is my domain.
love, a see through lie,
something untouchable
but fragile in itself,
something unimaginable,
only in your mind,
a lie in the sight of those who are blind,
and a blessing to those who can see,
a shining hope, something to live for,
or darkness, with nothing in it, for the envious
a vase, filled with wilting flowers,
something you want to remain unseen,
but the rotting smell of something old,
is beautiful and comparable,
to the hating and blind,
an oil tank, filled with liquid gold,
bursts, like the heart of a lover
and washes away sin, with lethal feelings
a curse to the blind,
a blessing to the truth,
love is everything in
little mountains
on a little world,
with little people
and their little laws,
little power struggles,
over little bits of land,
when that little piece of land
is a little bloody mess,
they leave it with little help.
it's why anarchy is looked down upon,
because the conditions are unfair,
Democracy, Communism, and Republic
would all be looked down upon
if given the time and place anarchy is,
But where Anarchy falls,
the others strive,
Anarchy can't survive in a world like this,
one so sick and twisted,
one where all other governments strive,
Anarchy couldn't prevail, it stands no chance
Anarchy is peace,
not death, destruc
get up,look down,fall,repeat by ponyboy1, literature
Literature
get up,look down,fall,repeat
skip merrily through my veins
stumble around, can't look down
look down, there's the floor
getting closer, i wonder why
then it hits, duh
a moment of realization
before, it hits me again
thump,
one more shot, to ease the pain
23 shots later
now i'm in a ball
in hallway, all alone
sobbing, screaming for help
no one comes
but that's all right
i tell myself it'll kill me
and it probably will
i scream again i can't
but another voice says don't be a puss
get up, i can't, it's physically impoassible
one more shot, to make it better
8 shots later
obviously i got up
but i was stupid
i got another shot
now i'm on the deck
puk
fake the real, the depression by ponyboy1, literature
Literature
fake the real, the depression
again, lying on the bed
fourth day in a row
no more that twenty words said
your reply to everything, i know
you're 32, get off the couch
i don't care if you're half asleep
shuffle with your little slouch
i'm not going to live with a creep
you're gonna get job
i don't care if you like it or not
you sit back down and start to sob
you tell me you should die and rot
i agree, and tell you to get up, again
you tell me that you can't go on
what about carlie, she's only ten
she has to put up with you as a con
pathetic, you can't be depressed,
depression is for those with lives
for the last 4 days, you haven't even gotten dressed
sa
little white pill,
slide down my throat
my vision grows still,
my mind begins to bloat
little white,
pure and loving
pain like god's smite
creates a simple craving
hard to hate
impossible to resist
stay up late
twitch, sobriety, i insist
i'm better,
i hope
one more letter
open it up, harder to cope
twelve more on the table
i sit and stare
my mind gives, i become unstable
i'm caught in it's magical snare
one more hurt,
just another
my mind and death begin to flirt
as my body runs for cover
it drains out,
right out of my veins
this one was small, just a bout
but i don't know if i can survive anymore of it's rains
a dark horizon
a bloody sun
the end of our fun
the day resembles the robe's of a nun
drapery and hate
a curtain descends
held steady by the will of fate
the show, at the very end
darkness in which nothing lives
the beginning at the end of what we know
the stars and the lights cease to strive
this is the end of our lives, the greatest show
fake smiles and stupid grins
all gone, washed away,
by the shadow's corrosive sins
a weird feeling, this darkness will stay
a start, till the end of time
with the end near
the curtain closes, fate begins to mime
the end, the very end, where all is washed clear
When anger and fear consumes you
Who will you turn to
No one can help you keep ur demons at bay
Ur going to have to find your own way
What will happen when you fall
No one to catch you at all
When you find yourself sobbing in the night
No one there to turn on the light
Could you possibly fight through your wrath
With no one to show u the path
Its just a matter of time
Before u lose ur mind
Without an ounce of passion
The shadow becomes ur new fashion
Shrouded in unkindness without a choice of ur own
Not a pinch of kindness shown
How could you ever be atoned
For the sins unfound
And your hate unbound
You were shocked to the
Crying in the darkness of night
Waiting for the brink of light
Turmoil of emotion incarnate
The hero of her dreams to late
He looks around lost and alone
His soul he was shown
Dark and mangled in its sorrow
He crumpled and looked low
He ducked his head and ran as fast as he could
Fearing the fear that all should
When he couldnt run anymore
Body and mind sore
He curdled into a ball and cried
Everything forgotten in sorrow. Even his pride
His screaming chants drown out all
Kill me now and answer my call
His pleas left unanswered
Mind as free as a bird
Left to the labyrinth of life
His time here had caused him nothing bu
Is it worth the chance
She put me in a trance
Of thoughts so deep
With a price so steep
Would it be bliss
More than a first kiss
Would there be more than a fling
Could she make me feel like a king
Ruling the world with her at my side
Love as strong as the tide
Always there pushing and pulling
Presented with the oceans sing
Or would she put me in a living hell
Dreams turning like a gilded bell
Life of torture, living like a slave
Would I forever rave
About the love I lost
And about the heavy cost
Consumed by petty fear
The past and future unclear
All hidden in a bottle of booze
That always seemed to soothe
Or would she re
When happiness deserts
And disaster flirts
In a sea of emotion
There is but a faint notion
What will keep you afloat
Will it be the love note
That says u gave ur all
While her intentions were shrouded like a face in a shawl
Or will it be for the love of life
Even though it causes strife
Whit beauty and love
Life as clean as a newborn dove
Could it be that youre scared of death
The separation from your flesh
Scared of what might happen
Even of what might sadden
Or are you wasting your time
Just a big warning sign
This is what you might be like
That was a big fuckin psyche
No one could be that bad
No one could be that
Laying on my camaro
I wish to tarrow
While our love was fun
Blooming and blossoming under the sun
Nothing lasts forever
There is always something better
With you in the shelter of my arms
You had been my alm
Caring and loving each other for three months past
Our relationship held fast
And now you cast me away
Now my mood is fickle and fey
We pass each other
Neither of us even bother
To say how sorry we are
The accident keeping us apart like a bar
Id be willing to rip that bar down
Just to wipe off that frown
Now were falling apart
I was stronger at the start
And now I see you crying
And I cant stop lying
With eyes as green as envy
Making everyone want to see
Everyone adores you
Everyone wants you
But youre mine my little angel
And I once again will tell
No matter who comes
I will protect us
Ill moon after you to the ends of the earth
Our love filled with laughter and mirth
I love everything you are and everything you do
And Im sure you feel the same way to
Even when I acted like a foo
And made you feel blue
We stuck by each other
And the love we fathered
Our love grows stronger
As the time we spend together grows longer
Why would we argue
When all we say is true
Why would we lie
We wouldnt even try
Something so heavenly
A gift that could be
something worthwhile
Something to make me smile
Make me happy forever
And leave my heart never
Tears of happiness flowing down my cheek
Everything about it unique
Willingly I take the resentment
The pain and anger I forget
Relatives screaming about our stupidity
But well make them see
How were right
With futures still bright
And how they were wrong
Lamentations like a broken song
Hidden in a world with her
After discussing were sure
And now the world knows
And then they show
How much they disapprove
The ones that do, help to soothe
They make everything alright
never was, never could be by LonelyAlakast, literature
Literature
never was, never could be
Breath of the moon rested on the dew of past,
lingering in the minds of the dead,
rotten signs point them no where,
they sit in the ground and wonder where they went wrong.
Hands scratching at the sky,
Praying for the promise never received,
New life, a better life,
after years of pain,
happiness after death must be found.
Tongues dry to dust,
As their voices fade in the dirt,
Please, their screams muted cry,
God apparently has no need,
For those who die.
Dreams of the lost,
they wander the woods,
as nothing ever was,
each night you fall to sleep,
unaware of the nightmares outside.
Blood that isn't real,
falls as those who
don't leave I miss you by LonelyAlakast, literature
Literature
don't leave I miss you
Live one day, sit my my side,
hide you face, the sky is grey,
tell me you lies, listen to my cries,
as i tell you, seven goodbyes.
I miss you scent, i miss you smile,
don't say to hate me,
i know your in denial, just stay,
with me for a while, the dawn is gone,
death is here, black blood,
skulls in the mud...
Why am i lonely, Why do cry,
can't you see, my heart wants to die,
fly away, hear the fallen pray,
today, like every day,
we talk by the grave,
and sleep in the cave.
You live in my mind,
you are gentle and kind,
till night falls, and blood is spilled,
it gives you thrill, as you prepare,
for another kill, my soul,my
Why do you hate me? by dontwaitforever, literature
Literature
Why do you hate me?
WHY DO YOU HATE ME
Sometimes I wish you understood me better
But then I think
If you did would we be more on the brink
Why do you hate me?
Is it because Im the one that can see
Inside your heart and mind
Seeing the stuff you left behind
Do you care that Im a good person
Do you care that I care
About you and no one else anywhere?
Do you think you know me,
By only what you see?
Do you hate me
Because Im me?
Ill rearrange all of the stars
That light up your night sky
So when you write your memoirs
Youll think of me and want to fly
Ill be waiting in the twilight
On a star made just for you
Its only you and me tonight
As we fade into deep blue
Well sit upon great Saturns rings
And watch the starry show
Then speak of these celestial things
And that which makes them glow
And when this night has ended
Well know the stars are just disguise
A mere reflection that ascended
From the light within our eyes
When anger and fear consumes you
Who will you turn to
No one can help you keep ur demons at bay
Ur going to have to find your own way
What will happen when you fall
No one to catch you at all
When you find yourself sobbing in the night
No one there to turn on the light
Could you possibly fight through your wrath
With no one to show u the path
Its just a matter of time
Before u lose ur mind
Without an ounce of passion
The shadow becomes ur new fashion
Shrouded in unkindness without a choice of ur own
Not a pinch of kindness shown
How could you ever be atoned
For the sins unfound
And your hate unbound
You were shocked to the
i write poetry, im kinda popular (moved this year so yeah), i play w/ fire a bit 2 much, i love dragons and wolves, i currently own 4 wolves, i hate lying although i am an amazing liar and can do it with an almost perfect efficiency, i love my family kinda, i owuld do nething 4 my brother, i love fighting whether it be fist fighting guns or weapons i love it, some pplz think that i am weird cuz i am so hard on my self, im kinda muscular, got eyes that change colors depending on my mood and what im wearing, about five six, i love bands like disturbed, buckcherry, and metalica, i have shoulder-length hair that is combed back, and if i tell u nemore i might get stalkers lol. so yeah that's me
Current Residence: transylvania, hangin w/ my vamp bros, lol deviantWEAR sizing preference: extra small, i like showing off my muscular body, lol Favourite genre of music: metal Favourite style of art: fantasy Operating System: windows xp MP3 player of choice: ipod Skin of choice: tiger, who doesnt like how a tiger looks Favourite cartoon character: tom from tom and jerry Personal Quote: if you try 2 fail but succeed, what have you done?
Favourite Movies
thirteen ghosts
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
disturbed, buckcherry
Favourite Games
fable
Favourite Gaming Platform
xbox 360
Tools of the Trade
pencil/pen, and piece of paper
Other Interests
poetry, football, welding, friends, my wolves, and drawing
me and my brother are gunna start fightin cuz he sux at it. lol. made wraps 2day. hopefully by the end of the school year he'll b able 2 defend himself. i've been doin a lot more fight nights lately, so yeah. lol. i had to update this. it was like forever and a day old.
is that how u say it in spanish?
oh well. lol.
sorry i haven't been on long enough to comment on nething, i'll get around 2 it eventually,
i'm just goin thru a tough time wit alcohol at the moment. it's just really gotten to me at the moment, it's something i can't live without for more that a couple hours, i'll get up every hour or so if i'm sleeping just for a couple shots, my last week or so has been drunk the whole time, i don't remember nething at all. the 2 poems i put up r ones i wrote, but didn't remember doing so, and i put em up on here.
im going on a vacation 4 a week. so i wont b on. ill prolly finally have something 4 here tho. and then ill post them. but yeah. leaving soon so ill comment on every1s work when i get back.
i have been doin absolutely nothin. lol. my life pretty much blows at the moment, every1 all of a sudden hates me for no reason at all, not an exageration or nething either. lol. i got grounded cuz my brother tried to run away, i had nothing to do with it, and my "x" hates me for no reason all of a sudden, like we were still friends, and now she hates me.